Cheeky Thoughts

I'm sitting here, not sure how I'm feeling. To be honest I don't even know where to start coz such alot has happened since I've posted anything here. I'm not even sure why I stopped but I think it had alot to deal with the fact that I had to accept in the end that I was gonna have to come back alone and I had to ....

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I'm seriously getting fed up with this.Obviously something caused Dolf to be upset again. I phoned Lili at 20:15 on Thursday night and what did I get? The phone put down on me 3 times when I tried his cell and the house number was just ignored.So here we go again. What the hell did I do wrong this time?He doesn't have a right to do ....

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I haven't written anything here in such a long time that I don't even know where to start. Last night as I lay in bed thinking I planned on writing an update as I had a conversation with Lili again last night, but there is so much more going on at the moment and my head is just so full of thoughts.Normally when I log in every morning I ....

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I finally managed to get these pics of me and Xaynee on the PC of the last day I saw her before I left South Africa.I miss her so much :(I love you Xaynee xxx ....

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On 12 May this year I wrote on this blog how happy I was that I finally found a social worker who seemed to understand my situation. I was wrong, VERY wrong.I'm referring to the social worker in Bloemfontein ofcourse, the one from the organisation I contacted when I had so much trouble getting hold of Lili.Well, she had her appointment with Dolf and Elsabe on Monday and ....

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They say patience is a virtue. Hmmm... In my view it is some damn way to see how far they can push me coz this is REALLY starting to work on my nerves and I'm gonna lose the plot if this continues.The social worker in Bloemfontein was supposed to get back to me after she had her appointment with Dolf and Elsabe on Monday. No guessing about ....

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Another night went by and I didn't sleep. I'm torturing myself really, I know it and I still do it.I've been so depressed and moody the past week that I'm almost surprised that Andy hasn't put me on a plane back to SA yet. Sometimes I felt so guilty about the way I was treating him, but mostly my anger and frustration took over. He just ....

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